You know when a fast angry song comes on that you know every word to and you’re in just the right mood that your eyes light up with the fire and angst of a thousand punk rockers and you just feel so alive
So this girl is over at my place right and it’s getting late so she decides she’ll spend the night. At first it looks like she’s gonna crash out on the couch but I make a motion like, “Eff that, it’s cuddle time”. So she comes over kind of smiling like, “Ha okay, I could do cuddles” and gets into bed next to me. But she does something I’ve never seen a girl do: she grabs a throw pillow and sticks it under her butt like, “Yeah I’ll spoon with you but that’s it”.
And that’s when I woke up. I think I startled myself awake inventing a new behavior for someone. And what’s interesting is that based on her personality I could see that actually happening, though I’ve never seen or thought about someone doing that before.
I dunno maybe it’s not that interesting. But I think it’s fascinating that the storytelling part of my brain could invent such a unique and endearing behavior with no prior experience to have built it from.
Also, maybe I should hit her up for drinks or something. I haven’t seen her in a long time haha.
that you can be without someone for six months, a year, five years and have mastered not thinking about them, but no matter how much time passes there will always be that moment where you see a photo of them or catch a little of their cologne on a crowed street and suddenly you’re plagued with a rapidly sinking stomach and the relentless question, “what did i do wrong?”
just gonna say this: if someone has social anxiety and they ask you something akin to ‘are you mad at me’ or ‘do you hate me’, it isn’t because they don’t trust you, it’s because their brain literally tells them that all the time
it’s not a personal slight, it’s insecurity caused by mental illness
Please know that if you date me, I am a very touchy person. I will like to pet your head and hold your hand, rub your shoulders or hug you a lot. Simply put, to physically feel you in some way is very comforting to me and I can’t really apologize for it, it just feels natural to me and makes me happy.
That feel when you go out with someone and while you’re with them they are the most attractive person in the world. But then you see them like months later and you’re like, “Whoa what the fuck happened to your face. Was it always like that?”